Scary Uncertainities

sometimes i look at life like a bystander, to make an astute observation , and often speculate to myself , of how life is a big red carpet of uncertainities, and we are our own unceremonious celebrities walking it down, not quite knowing what comes at the end. It baffles me , because , i know people, who seem so sure of themselves. I for one am not. Much to the dismay of my own confused self , i often take decisions quite easily and often to a  brutal finality , however , what decisions are those? fickle one's , i smile wryly , mocking my ownself. 

As it becomes so apparent to me, taking decisions, life altering one's can be such an engrossing task , that often i end up swaying past and taking bizzare detours into collateral thoughts, and the original point becomes rather moot. It would have been easier if life probably was not such a complex interplay , if i my decision would affect just me , i think , that'd have made me quite a daredevil , but as prudence ingrained into minds of middle class speaks, i find myself at cross roads. 

what all can one hold himself responsible for , i mean i process we all get hurt and we all hurt someone. our reasons can be different , but the honest truth is, that we all do that , and sometimes repeatedly so. I guess making mistakes and learning from them is not quite applicable to a few things in life. Sometimes when you take a decision , no matter how uncertain you are , you have to live with it, no matter what the consequences can be. It is a scary thought .